Cream

It was the strangest feeling in the world when I woke up on a Saturday morning to the sound of someone tempering with my door`s  lock. Most people would've been scared, I think. I bet you would have been scared. But not me... I just sat up on and stared at the lock being picked. Suddenly the door opened and I could see the devil herself. If I had been given the chance to take a hundred guess at who was on the other side of that door, I would've gotten them all wrong. Alice had been on my mind every day for the past year, but still, she wasn't even the last person I thought about at that specific moment. 

"Alice?" I said while unable to believe my own eyes. I must have been dreaming. Nighmarish dreams, that is. Deliciously nightmarish dreams. 

"Hello." She said as if nothing had ever gone wrong. She said as if she had been away for a while. 

"Hello...? What are you doing here? Why are you here?"

"Oh... I missed you. I felt like being with you."

"So you just came? Just like that?" I have to admit I was angry to see her. But I was also lost within myself. Have you ever heard of someone being mad and joyful at the same time? I was perfectly aware of how toxic Alice was. I had been a victim of her poisonous personality, and if I am to be completely honest, I was never fully aware, during her absence, if I missed being that victim or not. The thing about being exposed to all of Alice`s venomous characteristics is that it comes with one hell of a prize; being with her. 

"I woke up this morning, and I felt like being with you. I`m sorry I left the way I did, but can`t we just be together for a while? Is that too much to ask? You`re not doing anything today, are you?" She spoke exactly the way she always did. Alice didn`t seem to think she had to convince anyone of anything. She had her own little personal way of viewing the world, and according to this vision of hers, everyone lives and breathes so that one day they can perform one of her many deeds for her.

"It doesn`t matter whether I`m busy or not, Alice! I mean... You can`t just show up again after disappearing for a whole year. You don`t even think I deserve some answers? Honestly?" 

"What do you want to know?" Oh, the simplicity in her voice. It almost seems innocent. It`s no wonder I fell for it the first time. 

"Where did you even go? Why didn`t you tell me you were planning on not coming back?"

"Well, I remember I woke up, and I needed some coffee. But then you didn`t have any, and that pissed me off. I remember I was so angry, so I got some money from your wallet, and went down to the grocery store to get some. But on the way back, I didn`t feel like coming back. So I went home, and I didn`t feel like seing you anymore. Until today. I missed you this morning, like I said."

"You can`t be serious." Of course she was being serious. That`s exactly how her mind operates. I`ve made it perfectly clear by now, haven`t I? Now do you see? "I`m not sure I want to be with you today, Alice. I`m not sure I ever want to be around you anymore. Couldn`t you at least have written me a note? Something that said 'Went to grab some coffee. Will be back soon.` You know? A little courtesy?"

"But that would`ve been a lie. I never lied to you." That was true. As far as I know, that was probably the most honest sentence she had ever said to me. Probably. So, with that in mind, maybe it was okay to give her a chance. I mean, if she had left me a note, it would`ve been a lie. So maybe she did think about me after all. Right?

"What do you expect us to do, Alice? It`s been a year since we haven`t had a chat."

"I`m not in the mood for a chat. I was thinking we could spend the day in bed. Maybe the night too. You can put on a movie if you like. I don`t mind. I just want to be with you again. Is that okay, you think?"

"Well... I do have plenty of coffee available now, in case you're wondering."

What would you have done? Assuming this was the most passionate person you`d ever been with. Assuming she had been on your mind for at least a second, every day for a whole year. Of course I let her stay. Of course I put on a movie. Naturally, she took her clothes off and we spent an entire day together. We ordered some food from a nearby restaurant, and ate it while we watched a random tv show. She feel asleep shortly after we made love for twentieth time, and I slept while deep inside I wished she would never leave again. She was a dangerous girl, a toxic human being, and a terrible influence for anyone who got too close. But I liked her too much, and she she knew that. Within my embrace, and my warm welcome, I was almost sure that this time, I would be able to keep her close. 

I woke up the next morning only to find out she wasn`t in bed, and instead of her perfectly warm naked body, there was a small note attached to my chest that read:

"I only drink coffee with cream now. You had no cream."